I found one from November 15, 2011 at 10:56 pm. It says, “I hurt myself today.”

That was the first time I burned myself. Intentionally. I’ve burned myself on accident plenty of times before, but never intentionally.

The last note talking about burning was saved on March 8, 2012 at 2:08 am. It says, “Did it again. Five more to the list. Now it’s 17.”

There are 17 scars on my arm from all the times I’ve burned myself. March 8th was the last time. There are no words to express how I feel about this. About that dark period of time that has come and gone and left plenty of reminders of how things do somehow get better.

I’m not saying that I haven’t thought about doing it again. Because I have. Lots of times. I’m just saying that I no longer feel the need to deal with things that way. And knowing that makes me really happy.